1) What are you afraid of?
I’m afraid of Carl dying. I’m afraid of choosing a career, going back to school,
then changing my mind. I’m afraid I’m really not capable of staying in one place
for more than five years.
2) Have you traced any of them back to their source? And if so, what is the source?
I love Carl so much that if I lost him, at this point, part of myself would die too.
I want stability but I’ve never had it before, which means I’m not actually sure I
want it.
3) What things that you want in life are your fears keeping you from?
Nothing. I’ve learned a lot about living beyond my fears in the past
five years.
4) What makes you jealous?
I don’t get jealous about Carl anymore, but I’m still very protective.
5) If you could break your anger into pieces, what would the pieces be?
I don’t harbor much anger either. Now, when I get angry, its mostly on behalf
of someone else. For the moment, all is well. : )
6) What triggers your anger?
Mean people saying and doing mean things.
7) What do you want to be and what is in your way?
I don’t know, but I”m working on it.
8) When you think about the past, what hurts the most?
Its just a dull ache now and I’m still sometimes sad for lost innocence,
regretful about poor decisions, but I don’t spend as much time thinking
about it as I used to and when I do think about it, its so much more
constructive.
9) What makes you happy?
Too many things to list here. I’m so much more present in my life
now. And, interestingly enough, I think I have the past to thank for that.
10) Who do you want to be in five years?
Me, which is great, because I don’t have much choice. ; )
