25th Year (still in process)

This year I;
got another dog.
moved in with Carl.
bought a red dress.
finally saw Phantom of the Opera.
started cooking again.
finished a few knitting/crochet projects for the first time ever.
took a few more steps towards becoming my mother.
met a house that feels like a home. In Oregon of all places!
got engaged to my high school [...]

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Winter is Almost Here

I reject the comfort of my loving dogs
I reject the comfort of the flames in the fireplace
I reject the comfort of the bookshelf and the coatrack
and the spacious kitchen where I make our meals
tonight I am alone in the middle
looking out
I have said no to everything
that satisfies my needs
breaking down Maslow’s hierarchy
in the name of [...]

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Release

catalyst
catapult me
into that other place
where you can’t sit on the the sofa
you’re staring up at
from the living room floor
I’d love to do this another way
but my eyes cling to their color
I simply am what I am
This is all I know
of release I tie emotions
to each letter
then cast the words out of my heart
hoping they’ll fly [...]

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A List

I want to open my mind and let all the facts fall out.
I want to go where my heart goes when you holdm e tight.
I want to put my heart in the washing machine; hot/cold, heavy duty cycle.
I want to believe I could protect a child, that I could be protected.
I want to trace every [...]

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