Growing Things

I awoke this morning
and chose again
to love you,
only you
with every means I have to love
just as I chose yesterday
and will choose again tomorrow.
The faith you planted in this barren soil
and tended so carefully
over the years
has grown slowly–
turning bright leaves
to your sunny eyes and
sending roots down
down
into the very heart
which had starved so many others.
But this faith [...]

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Really Ridiculous Love Rhyme : )

kiss me call me keep me, if you like–
these lips and hands are true
and if you’d like the heart you hold
I’ll let you have it too
I love your name and love your eyes
and both your hands and feet
but best of all I love your smiles
so gentle and sugar-sweet
You fill my mind with ponderings
on life and [...]

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I’m here, wish you were drunk. : )

I miss you even more when I’m having fun
everyone whose never seen us together
says we’re just like everyone else
but my love snobbery wont’ let me believe it
I don’t want your soul
you don’t have to give me your heart
or let me lay claim to your body
just give me your hand and
walk with me awhile–
walk with me
for [...]

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forget it

Montego Bay
wide open eyes yelling secrets
directed at an empty face
that doesn’t care
but easily overheard
by anyone who wasn’t blinking
Kev and I contact–
message sent/received
he passes his drink
through the thick air
between us four
and I have a long pull
to cover my lack of input
what am I supposed to say?
any of us?
If I ever say anything
it will be:
stop fighting like [...]

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Speculation Part 2 (in progress)

I am drawn,
attracted
to his clean and empty hands
outstretched in my direction.
He’s the first man in my life
to make me want to let go
of a past I’ve kept close
to explain myself . . .
or excuse myself . . .
He has a past too
but let the wind take it away
what was left
while I sat surrounded on all [...]

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Would You Still Love Me?

When I remember myself
I forget why you’re still here.
Ruined doesn’t begin to describe
the feeling that I must have had no worth to begin with.
“Frailty thy name is woman!”
was the note he tucked under my fingernails
(or maybe it was, I’m nicer to sluts who smile, but
have it your way, Bitch, I’m going to kill you anyway.”)
The [...]

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Lines

something to say
that died on my lips . . .
will I find enough words
in enough time
to finish?
these lines are homeless,
filling the streets of my mind
till I build them poems to live in . . .
the crunch was sickening
but Roxy kept me safe
If Lilith got to have children,
I hope I am descended from her . . [...]

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Untitled

words break apart
flowing freely as before
eyes shut tight
I cannot see
myself being seen
answering only to my stomach
and my God
on this quest
for poetry

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Scorpio

Am I already written?
in starry ink tracing the skies
as the moon turns around
the earth turning around
the sun?
I wander, but am I lost
or is my wandering ordained
by the position of the planets
the early October morning I took my first breath?
A brooding and dwelling darkness
I have known since I was a child
climbing trees to be alone and [...]

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Loretta

I look at her and say
no wonder you’ve survived 200 million years
relatively unchanged
(I say this to a passing Caimen)
her skin is hard like armor
powerful legs and sharp claws
more tiny teeth than I can count
a tail that could knock me unconscious . . .
hmmmmmm
looking at my own arms and legs
my skin just doesn’t seem so protective
as [...]

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Sigh

I’ve lost track, Love
of words said,
steps taken
across months
so focused on school
I forgot I was still living
the rest of my life
it doesn’t wait
while my back is turned
and I’m facing other matters . . .
I’m tired, Love
worn out truly
too weary for worrying
about where to put my things
I’ll wait awhile
rest awhile
drink a few mojitos
have a few river days
before [...]

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Stress

I have never felt pressure like this
I usually don’t let myself
but
this is different
my mom bought cards to send out,
my dad’s eyes shine when he tells the church,
his friends, anyone who will listen
that his daughter is graduating
the first of the four with a college degree . . .
they’re throwing me a party–
it will be the first [...]

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Thermoregulation

sometimes I can’t keep warm
from the inside out
I borrow heat–
laying sun on my skin,
stepping in a hot bath,
tangling my arms and legs with his
seeking, absorbing
feeling warmth soak in
from wherever I can find it
amphibious?
a life lived half in water, half on land
permeable skin . . .
reptilian?
laying on the black rocks beside the river
to get rid of [...]

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Speculation

He is attracted
drawn
toward restless emotion
barely concealed beneath her skin
he steps closer
feels
the heat of unseen passion
confusing when compared to her chilly interior
not like what he has known
of himself—
There is something controlled, deliberate, thoughtful
in her gaze
something that disturbs the senses
but lures him on all the same
secrets that burn
cold flames flickering in the frozen darkness
claw marks on the [...]

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Dear Why?lee

Dear Why?lee,
I will never forget the day I brought you home from the Humane Society. According to the tag outside your kennel, you were gentle, great with kids, played with other dogs and very mellow. You had also been there for three and a half weeks and were scheduled to meet your maker in three [...]

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